Sunday, May 28, 2017

Bodies

How many bodies
do you want me to pile up
before you are
well and truly mine?

You knew very well
all along that
I was all yours
even before I nailed
the first coffin shut

What is it that you desire
from all the sins I collect
What is it that you enjoy
in all this blood I spill
What is it that you seek
in my murderous pale hands

I was always a sinner myself
from way before I first met you;
What is it that you gain by
moulding my sins
to the shapes of your choice

If it means that you are
eventually gonna be completely mine
I will rack up body after body after body
for my heart doesn't tire in pursuit of you

I am only running out of places
on my wrists to slit.

I want my heart to be broken by you

I want my heart to be broken by you
After I fall madly in love
To the point where I don't remember
What a world without you
As the centre of it, is anymore

I want you to leave
Completely without reason
After we've created sunshine
And rain and rainbows
Among the barren meadows
Of the vast wastelands
Our hearts had become
Before we met each other

I want you gone
When the sun is at it's peak
When the rain pours down the hardest
When you and I are the happiest
And I want my heart
To explode into multiple tiny pieces
And my entire soul to be deformed
Due to collateral damages

Maybe my heart is
Already exploding for you

Maybe all I'm trying to say is that
I really want you
Even if you were to
Leave my heart in
Powdery shatters

haiku (33)

Wish you are not sick
The party won't be as lit
When you are not here

You are a great lake

Shining in the bluest of blues,
You are a great lake
and in the vastness
of your immense glory
I, with my soul and body
not intact, am drowning

My limited sight
bound by my humanly anguish
can only gaze as far as
the foamy lake waves
crashing against the shore
which mesmerize me
through their irregular meditation

But as I drown and drown
and struggle for each breath
filling my lungs with You...
I experience the great depths
of beauty, hidden within
the trenches and deep waters
Unexplored in you

I am just a spec of dust
disappearing beneath your magnitude

Miracles

We are so small
With our conceptual high rises
Hovering over the heavy air

Our eyes too blurry
To focus on anything beyond
Our own little personal bubbles

And the air smells like magic
With distant chatter and indistinct laughter
Dispersing into the atmosphere

But we, in our individual selves
Are only specs of dust
In this great old suburban desert
Waiting for miracles to happen

But miracles only happen to
Those who make them happen

haiku (32)

Why do you do this
Why did you have to come here
Gorgeous heart wrecker!

Untitled

Structure - Degrees - Careers
Jobs - Resumes - Boredom
Disappointment - Sorrow - Pain
Raindrops - Snow - Summer
People - Sex - People
Love - Heartbreak - Love
Heartbreak - Love - Heartbreak
People - Careers - Structure
Sex - Disappointment - Pain
Heartbreak - heartbreak - heartbreak
You - me - done
Love - You - love

haiku (31)

Could you stay afar?
My knees tremble under your
Misty amber eyes

haiku (30)

Please please keep raining
I want to get washed away
Your smile is painful

sinking

I am sinking
in her bathbomb eyes
and her deep brine tears
as I jumped into the
deep end of her
late fall heart

not knowing how to swim
yet.

would I

Now, you bring a smile to my lips
whenever I think of you
and I cannot keep my mind off you
but when it really comes down to it
would I really fight for you?
I want to set fire to
the image of you in my head
before it completely freezes
my head and successfully
ends up destroying me

windowpane

Water dripping down the windowpane
drop by drop by drop
and my tea getting colder and colder
sitting on my table in solitude
lights beaming in the distant city-scape
colours fading in the polluted rainy skies
and my mind losing itself, sinking
further and further into these untrodden territories 
as you roam the corners o my heart
that I didn't know existed

haiku (29)

I want good ice-cream
Finally it's warm enough!!
WHERE IS MY WALLET!!!!!???!!!

haiku (28)

In break at work now
Not enough syllables here
To dock all my thoughts

haiku (27)

I want to tango
To the rhythm of your heart
Two steps at a time

haiku (26)

Drowning in your eyes
That amber glow fills my lungs
This death is so sweet

haiku (25)

You kept me sleepless
Thinking and dreaming of you
Legs, eyes and that voice!

purgatory

Concrete monsters hovering over this realm
we are stuck in a low budget indie film
we do not understand what we speak if not for these subtitles
subtitles from a strange language we do not understand
we barely comprehend what is real and what is not
and if not for this perfect cinematography in this dream
we'd rather be stuck in purgatory and be there forever
or is this what purgatory is?

(im)pure

Pure hearts and impure thoughts
pure drugs and impure highs
pure friends and impure foe
pure foe and impure friends
pure mouths and impure ears
pure ears and impure mouths
pure smiles and impure tears
pure tears and impure smiles
pure highs and impure drugs
pure thoughts and impure hearts

haiku (24)

Please don't stop smiling
You rid the skies of dark clouds
Gorgeous - Sunshine - You

self portraits

As expected
I struggle to write these words
but somewhere
between these lines
she will be smiling
and it will easily be
the best smile you have ever seen

And of course
I drown and drown
between her eyes
stopping not
for a single gasp
of a dying breath

with her post impressionist
self portraits
all over my dreams

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

ප්‍රේමණීය කිවිඳියෙනි,

ප්‍රේමණීය කිවිඳියෙනි,
ඔබට මා අත්පිස්නාවක් ම
පමණෙකිද?

කුඩ නොමැති වැසි දිනෙක
දෙපා නෙක පටලැවී
සිතිවිලි මඩ වගුරක
ඇද වැටුනු රුදු මොහොතක

දෑත් මත පැටලැවුනු
ඛේදණීය වේදන මඩ කැබලිති
පිසලන්න පමණක්ම
ඔබ භාවිතා කරලන

නොකිලිටි,
මොහොතකින් කිලිටි වන,
අත් පිස්නාවක්ම පමණෙකිද
මම

ප්‍රේමණීය කිවිඳියෙනි ඔබ හට...

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Reminiscing

Nothing much has changed
afterall,
I mean I still
have a largely empty
refrigerator
and walk around in my
boxers at home
all the time

I still cook pasta
and take showers with
my bathroom door open

The only difference, I guess, is
that there is no
little naked lady
appearing through the door
brushing her teeth at the sink
and hopping in the shower with me

           Every morning

                            Anymore

love and war

Now I would be lying
if I say that I didn't
see your love burn
beneath the ashes and
if I say that I didn't
wish that the fire
caught on and exploded
like it eventually did

I just happen to be collateral damage

Can't really complain
as I willingly walked
on a minefield myself

Everything is fair in love and war right?

Right?

හින්ට් ගැහුවේ මටද හාමුදුරුවනේ

දුරුතු පෝයට
පන්සලේ
එදා බණ කියද්දි
නොතේරෙන හැමෝටම
තේරෙන්න
හින්ට් ගැහුවේ මටද
හාමුදුරුවනේ

එක එකා ගමේ උන්
හැරී හැරී බලනකොට
සිල් රෙදි පොරෝගෙන
අඬන්නද කියන්නේ

ඒ බලපු උන්,
උන්ගේ මිනිස්සු
අඬ අඬා මගේ කාමරේ
මයේ එක්ක ලගිනකොට
එලවගන්නද කියන්නේ

කොහෙ කොහේ මොන මොනවා
ඇන්දත් නො ඇන්දත්
පන්සලට ගොඩ වුනේ
සිල් රෙදි පිටින්
හාමුදුරුවනේ

අව්වට වැල්ල රස්නෙයි..
මයේ කකුල් පිච්චෙන්නෙත්
උන්ගෙ පිච්චෙනවා වගේමයි

මයේ එක්ක ගමේ උන්
එක එකා දොඩවන මගුල්
පන්සලට විත් කියන්නද
අපේ හාමුදුරුවනේ

ඇඟ පතේ ඇති රුදා
පන්සලෙන් අරිනවද,
උන් තාම ලෞකිකයි...

මයේ කඳුලු පිටවෙලා හුඟක් කල්

ඇනුම් පද කිව් මුල් කෙනා
ඔබ වහන්සේ නෙවෙයි
හාමුදුරුවනේ

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Your sweaty palms
and bloodshot eyes

My bloodshot eyes
and goosebumps

This herbal aroma
and floating ecstasy

For a moment I wish you were mine
and then I don't.

Red Flags

I got a warm heart
and a pocket full of red flags

And on every new territory I explore
I plant those red flags
one flag at a time

I can't tell if it is
your rose coloured glasses
or whether you are actually colourblind

Because you,
just like she did once upon a time
walk right past, overlooking them
as if you don't see them at all

My heart freezes

haiku (23)

Stuck inside this mall
Watching people walk in swarms
How are you special

Unlive my life

I wish I can
unlive my life

Unlive 
the quiet snowfalls
and the rumbling
thunderstorms
of the summer

I wish I could
unlive these
concrete landscapes
and the vivid
hues of autumn

The fragrance of
the blossoming spring
and he serene sounds
of live music

But mostly
I want to
unlive
you

and in turn
unlive
myself

Early spring

Within the
early spring
greyscale
concrete dullness

in between the
underexposed
discoloured landscapes

with unsaturated pines
and leafless
everything else

under the
under-designed
cement cubes of
downtown architecture

You
do not
fade away
in your crimson jacket
and your
violet smile

haiku (22)

Invisible you
Would you let me taste your lips
and that dark lipstick?

haiku (21)

Coca cola world
Buying pizza drunk is fun
You are so pretty

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

පුර අඟනාව

පුර හඳ ගාව
ඉඟි බිඟි පෑව
මෙලොවට නාව
පුර අඟනාව

දිලිසෙන දෑස
සැමදෙන ආස
පසිඳු විදේස
වලද විසේස

මධුවිත සාද
සුමිහිරි නාද
මැද ඔය පාද
නැටවෙනවාද

එක එක පාට
ෆැෂන් කරාට
කළුවර රෑට
පේන්නෙ කාට

නොදැනෙන සේම
ඉඟි කෙරුවාම
තම හැම දේම
මතකද තාම

Thursday, April 13, 2017

සසඳ

පන්හිඳ මතට සිතිවිලි දිය ගලනකොට
පරසිඳු මුකුළු කවුළු දොරින් හමනකොට
එක්ටැම් ෆ්ලැට් වලට වී ගගනත දෙසට
බලනෙමි තරිඳු විසිරෙනු තරු කරලියට

සබඳ නිබඳ සඳ ලඟ ඔබ ගැවසුනිද
සුවඳ හමන කුසුමෙකි රූසිරු නොමඳ
නොදැන ඔබ කලණ ඔබ තව ලතැවුනිද
සබඳ ඔබ සඳෙකි තවමත් සැඟවුනිද

සසඳ, සසඳ ගගනත දිය හැලෙනකොට
සසඳ, සසඳ ඔබමය බිමැසිය මතට
සසඳ සසඳ එම සඳ මෙම සඳ එකට
සසඳ ඔබ පහන නිවුනිද පහණතට

Monday, April 10, 2017

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

haiku (19)

Betrayals and pain
Slow death hurts the insides more
Still beautiful

haiku (18)

Calming melodies
The wind calls for a slow dance
Before it howls loud

You

You
are a
non Newtonian
fluid

Flowing
at your own
accord
disregarding
all classical
rules of
viscosity

But
disfiguring
under
shear
stress

Monday, April 3, 2017

Karma?

You called yourself
a shipwreck
like the titanic

But I think
you are more like the
iceburg
that the titanic
struck against

Melting away
day by day
due to
global warming

O your sadistic dungeon of a heart!

Do you think
you need all those
hooks and chains
mounted on the walls
of the chambers
of your heart
to hold me
in there?

My
non-masochistic
knees
are already
on its
floor.

You and I / Me and You

How is it that
my heart melts
like ice cubes
in a microwave
at your
cosmopolitan demeanor

weakening my knees
and tilt shifting
my whole world
but you

a bright
crimson smudge
on a greyscale
concrete landscape

and I,
from the sidelines
die,
and I die,
and I die some more
as you go on
living your
synthetic dreams
As our heartbeats
synchronize
there is a strange sort of
meditation
between one beat
and another

making me waltz
to the rhythm of your hips
over the hymns
of your breaths
slowly kissing my lips

Thursday, March 30, 2017

ප්‍රේමය

ඇඳ ඇතිරිලි
අපිලිවෙළ කරවන
මඳ අඳුරකි
ප්‍රේමය

21-03-2017

You are like the first day of spring
warm and bright until it starts raining
over the naked trees and muddy ground
damp from the melting late winter snow

You are the fine line between cringe and comfort,
between the cold and warmth, end and beginning

          You are the angel of cold decay and warm hope.

Smiles

Smiles are misleading,
Misleadingly powerful

Even when they occur
Blurrily across a tea store
When you aren't wearing your glasses

They may make your heart skip beats
They may fluctuate the balance of your oxygen intake
They may increase your endorphin levels

But
Do not forget

Smiles are powerful
Powerfully misleading